我们到了机场。幸运之神站在了我这边,或许这只是因为赔率比较高。(or maybe it was just good odds。。。)爱德华的飞机要在四个小时以后才会降落,那个航班将停靠在最大的那个候机楼里,而那时正是最多航班降落的时候——当然,他的飞机会在这个时间这个地点降落并不令人惊讶。但这正是我所需要的那座航空楼:最大的,最容易让人迷路的那一座,而候机楼三层的那道门将是我唯一的机会。(terminal。。。所谓幸福终点站,绝命终结站,其实都是指terminal,候机楼。。。这个认识让我有如醍醐灌顶。。。)
出了远处的那个门,只需再冲刺一小段路就能到达电梯。如果贾斯帕真的像他说的那样待在那里等着的话,他绝对不会看见我(I’d never be in his line of sight)。当我奔跑的时候,我没有回头张望。这是我唯一的几乎,即使他看见我了,我也得继续跑。人们都在盯着我看,但我不去理会他们。拐过拐角,电梯正在那里等着,我夺路狂奔,把手伸进那架载满了人的下行电梯即将关闭的门里。我用力挤进那群愤怒的乘客里,看了一眼按钮板,想知道一层的按钮是否已经被按下了。那个按钮已经亮了起来,电梯门关上了。
当我转过最后一个街角,冲进仙人掌街的时候,我能看到那间舞蹈教室了,它看上去依然是我记忆中的那个样子。教室门前的停车位是空的,屋里所有的竖式窗帘都拉了下来。我跑不动了——我甚至没法呼吸,筋疲力尽和恐惧夺走了我的优势。(exertion and fear had gotten the best of me。。。)我想着我的母亲,这才能让自己迈动步子,一步接一步地往前走。
It had taken much less time than I’d thought — all the terror, thedespair, the shattering of my heart. The minutes were ticking by moreslowly than usual. Jasper still hadn’t come back when I returned toAlice. I was afraid to be in the same room with her, afraid that shewould guess… and afraid to hide from her for the same reason.
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I would have thought I was far beyond the ability to be surprised, mythoughts tortured and unstable, but I was surprised when I saw Alice bentover the desk, gripping the edge with two hands.
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"Alice?"She didn’t react when I called her name, but her head was slowly rockingside to side, and I saw her face. Her eyes were blank, dazed… My thoughtsflew to my mother. Was I already too late?
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I hurried to her side, reaching out automatically to touch her hand.
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"Alice!" Jasper’s voice whipped, and then he was right behind her, hishands curling over hers, loosening them from their grip on the table.
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Across the room, the door swung shut with a low click.
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"What is it?" he demanded.
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She turned her face away from me, into his chest. "Bella," she said.
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"I’m right here," I replied.
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Her head twisted around, her eyes locking on mine, their expression stillstrangely blank. I realized at once that she hadn’t been speaking to me,she’d been answering Jasper’s question.
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"What did you see?" I said — and there was no question in my flat,uncaring voice.
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Jasper looked at me sharply. I kept my expression vacant and waited. Hiseyes were confused as they flickered swiftly between Alice’s face andmine, feeling the chaos… for I could guess what Alice had seen now.
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I felt a tranquil atmosphere settle around me. I welcomed it, using it tokeep my emotions disciplined, under control.
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Alice, too, recovered herself.
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"Nothing, really," she answered finally, her voice remarkably calm andconvincing. "Just the same room as before."She finally looked at me, her expression smooth and withdrawn. "Did youwant breakfast?""No, I’ll eat at the airport." I was very calm, too. I went to thebathroom to shower. Almost as if I were borrowing Jasper’s strange extrasense, I could feel Alice’s wild — though well-concealed — desperation tohave me out of the room, to be alone with Jasper. So she could tell himthat they were doing something wrong, that they were going to fail…I got ready methodically, concentrating on each little task. I left myhair down, swirling around me, covering my face. The peaceful mood Jaspercreated worked its way through me and helped me think clearly. Helped meplan. I dug through my bag until I found my sock full of money. I emptiedit into my pocket.
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I was anxious to get to the airport, and glad when we left by seven. Isat alone this time in the back of the dark car. Alice leaned against thedoor, her face toward Jasper but, behind her sunglasses, shooting glancesin my direction every few seconds.
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"Alice?" I asked indifferently.
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She was wary. "Yes?""How does it work? The things that you see?" I stared out the sidewindow, and my voice sounded bored. "Edward said it wasn’t definite… thatthings change?" It was harder than I would have thought to say his name.
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That must have been what alerted Jasper, why a fresh wave of serenityfilled the car.
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"Yes, things change…" she murmured — hopefully, I thought. "Some thingsare more certain than others… like the weather. People are harder. I onlysee the course they’re on while they’re on it. Once they change theirminds — make a new decision, no matter how small — the whole futureshifts."I nodded thoughtfully. "So you couldn’t see James in Phoenix until hedecided to come here.""Yes," she agreed, wary again.
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And she hadn’t seen me in the mirror room with James until I’d made thedecision to meet him there. I tried not to think about what else shemight have seen. I didn’t want my panic to make Jasper more suspicious.
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They would be watching me twice as carefully now, anyway, after Alice’svision. This was going to be impossible.
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We got to the airport. Luck was with me, or maybe it was just good odds.
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Edward’s plane was landing in terminal four, the largest terminal, wheremost flights landed — so it wasn’t surprising that his was. But it wasthe terminal I needed: the biggest, the most confusing. And there was adoor on level three that might be the only chance.
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We parked on the fourth floor of the huge garage. I led the way, for oncemore knowledgeable about my surroundings than they were. We took theelevator down to level three, where the passengers unloaded. Alice andJasper spent a long time looking at the departing flights board. I couldhear them discussing the pros and cons of New York, Atlanta, Chicago.
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Places I’d never seen. And would never see.
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I waited for my opportunity, impatient, unable to stop my toe fromtapping. We sat in the long rows of chairs by the metal detectors, Jasperand Alice pretending to people-watch but really watching me. Every inch Ishifted in my seat was followed by a quick glance out of the corner oftheir eyes. It was hopeless. Should I run? Would they dare to stop mephysically in this public place? Or would they simply follow?
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I pulled the unmarked envelope out of my pocket and set it on top ofAlice’s black leather bag. She looked at me.
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"My letter," I said. She nodded, tucking it under the top flap. He wouldfind it soon enough.
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The minutes passed and Edward’s arrival grew closer. It was amazing howevery cell in my body seemed to know he was coming, to long for hiscoming. That made it very hard. I found myself trying to think of excusesto stay, to see him first and then make my escape. But I knew that wasimpossible if I was going to have any chance to get away.
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Several times Alice offered to go get breakfast with me. Later, I toldher, not yet.
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I stared at the arrival board, watching as flight after flight arrived ontime. The flight from Seattle crept closer to the top of the board.
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And then, when I had only thirty minutes to make my escape, the numberschanged. His plane was ten minutes early. I had no more time.
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"I think I’ll eat now," I said quickly.
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Alice stood. "I’ll come with you.""Do you mind if Jasper comes instead?" I asked. "I’m feeling a little…" Ididn’t finish the sentence. My eyes were wild enough to convey what Ididn’t say.
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Jasper stood up. Alice’s eyes were confused, but — I saw to my relief—not suspicious. She must be attributing the change in her vision to somemaneuver of the tracker’s rather than a betrayal by me.
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Jasper walked silently beside me, his hand on the small of my back, as ifhe were guiding me. I pretended a lack of interest in the first fewairport cafes, my head scanning for what I really wanted. And there itwas, around the corner, out of Alice’s sharp sight: the level-threeladies’ room.
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"Do you mind?" I asked Jasper as we passed. "I’ll just be a moment.""I’ll be right here," he said.
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As soon as the door shut behind me, I was running. I remembered the timeI had gotten lost from this bathroom, because it had two exits.
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Outside the far door it was only a short sprint to the elevators, and ifJasper stayed where he said he would, I’d never be in his line of sight.
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Along the crowded curb there wasn’t a cab in sight.
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I had no time. Alice and Jasper were either about to realize I was gone,or they already had. They would find me in a heartbeat.