ONE DAY at this time Birkin was called to London. He was not very fixed in his abode. He had rooms in Nottingham, because his work lay chiefly in that town. But often he was in London, or in Oxford. He moved about a great deal, his life seemed uncertain, without any definite rhythm, any organic meaning.
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On the platform of the railway station he saw Gerald Crich, reading a newspaper, and evidently waiting for the train. Birkin stood some distance off, among the people. It was against his instinct to approach anybody.
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From time to time, in a manner characteristic of him, Gerald lifted his head and looked round. Even though he was reading the newspaper closely, he must keep a watchful eye on his external surroundings. There seemed to be a dual consciousness running in him. He was thinking vigorously of something he read in the newspaper, and at the same time his eye ran over the surfaces of the life round him, and he missed nothing. Birkin, who was watching him, was irritated by his duality. He noticed too, that Gerald seemed always to be at bay against everybody, in spite of his queer, genial, social manner when roused.
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Now Birkin started violently at seeing this genial look flash on to Gerald's face, at seeing Gerald approaching with hand outstretched.
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`Hallo, Rupert, where are you going?'
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`London. So are you, I suppose.'
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`Yes --'
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Gerald's eyes went over Birkin's face in curiosity.
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`We'll travel together if you like,' he said.
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`Don't you usually go first?' asked Birkin.
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`I can't stand the crowd,' replied Gerald. `But third'll be all right. There's a restaurant car, we can have some tea.'
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The two men looked at the station clock, having nothing further to say.
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`What were you reading in the paper?' Birkin asked.
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Gerald looked at him quickly.`Isn’t it funny, what they do put in the newspapers,’ he said. `Here are two leaders --’ he held out his Daily Telegraph, `full of the ordinary newspaper cant --’ he scanned the columns down -- `and then there’s this little -- I dunno what you’d call it, essay, almost -- appearing with the leaders, and saying there must arise a man who will give new values to things, give us new truths, a new attitude to life, or else we shall be a crumbling nothingness in a few years, a country in ruin --’
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`I suppose that's a bit of newspaper cant, as well,' said Birkin.
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`It sounds as if the man meant it, and quite genuinely,' said Gerald.
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`Give it to me,' said Birkin, holding out his hand for the paper.
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The train came, and they went on board, sitting on either side a little table, by the window, in the restaurant car. Birkin glanced over his paper, then looked up at Gerald, who was waiting for him.
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`I believe the man means it,' he said, `as far as he means anything.'
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`And do you think it's true? Do you think we really want a new gospel?' asked Gerald.
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Birkin shrugged his shoulders.`I think the people who say they want a new religion are the last to accept anything new. They want novelty right enough. But to stare straight at this life that we’ve brought upon ourselves, and reject it, absolutely smash up the old idols of ourselves, that we sh’ll never do. You’ve got very badly to want to get rid of the old, before anything new will appear -- even in the self.’
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Gerald watched him closely.
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`You think we ought to break up this life, just start and let fly?' he asked.
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`This life. Yes I do. We've got to bust it completely, or shrivel inside it, as in a tight skin. For it won't expand any more.'
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There was a queer little smile in Gerald's eyes, a look of amusement, calm and curious.
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`And how do you propose to begin? I suppose you mean, reform the whole order of society?' he asked.
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Birkin had a slight, tense frown between the brows. He too was impatient of the conversation.
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`I don't propose at all,' he replied. `When we really want to go for something better, we shall smash the old. Until then, any sort of proposal, or making proposals, is no more than a tiresome game for self-important people.'
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The little smile began to die out of Gerald's eyes, and he said, looking with a cool stare at Birkin:
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`So you really think things are very bad?'
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`Completely bad.'
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The smile appeared again.
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`In what way?'
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`Every way,' said Birkin. `We are such dreary liars. Our one idea is to lie to ourselves. We have an ideal of a perfect world, clean and straight and sufficient. So we cover the earth with foulness; life is a blotch of labour, like insects scurrying in filth, so that your collier can have a pianoforte in his parlour, and you can have a butler and a motor-car in your up-to-date house, and as a nation we can sport the Ritz, or the Empire, Gaby Deslys and the Sunday newspapers. It is very dreary.'
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Gerald took a little time to re-adjust himself after this tirade.
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`Would you have us live without houses -- return to nature?' he asked.
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`I would have nothing at all. People only do what they want to do -- and what they are capable of doing. If they were capable of anything else, there would be something else.'
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Again Gerald pondered. He was not going to take offence at Birkin.
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`Don't you think the collier's pianoforte, as you call it, is a symbol for something very real, a real desire for something higher, in the collier's life?'
`Higher!' cried Birkin. `Yes. Amazing heights of upright grandeur. It makes him so much higher in his neighbouring collier's eyes. He sees himself reflected in the neighbouring opinion, like in a Brocken mist, several feet taller on the strength of the pianoforte, and he is satisfied. He lives for the sake of that Brocken spectre, the reflection of himself in the human opinion. You do the same. If you are of high importance to humanity you are of high importance to yourself. That is why you work so hard at the mines. If you can produce coal to cook five thousand dinners a day, you are five thousand times more important than if you cooked only your own dinner.'
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`I suppose I am,' laughed Gerald.
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`Can't you see,' said Birkin, `that to help my neighbour to eat is no more than eating myself. "I eat, thou eatest, he eats, we eat, you eat, they eat" -- and what then? Why should every man decline the whole verb. First person singular is enough for me.'
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`You've got to start with material things,' said Gerald. Which statement Birkin ignored.
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`And we've got to live for something, we're not just cattle that can graze and have done with it,' said Gerald.
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`Tell me,' said Birkin. `What do you live for?'
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Gerald's face went baffled.
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`What do I live for?' he repeated. `I suppose I live to work, to produce something, in so far as I am a purposive being. Apart from that, I live because I am living.'
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`And what's your work? Getting so many more thousands of tons of coal out of the earth every day. And when we've got all the coal we want, and all the plush furniture, and pianofortes, and the rabbits are all stewed and eaten, and we're all warm and our bellies are filled and we're listening to the young lady performing on the pianoforte -- what then? What then, when you've made a real fair start with your material things?'
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Gerald sat laughing at the words and the mocking humour of the other man. But he was cogitating too.
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`We haven't got there yet,' he replied. `A good many people are still waiting for the rabbit and the fire to cook it.'
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`So while you get the coal I must chase the rabbit?' said Birkin, mocking at Gerald.
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`Something like that,' said Gerald.
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Birkin watched him narrowly. He saw the perfect good-humoured callousness, even strange, glistening malice, in Gerald, glistening through the plausible ethics of productivity.
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`Gerald,' he said, `I rather hate you.'
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`I know you do,' said Gerald. `Why do you?'
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Birkin mused inscrutably for some minutes.`I should like to know if you are conscious of hating me,’ he said at last. `Do you ever consciously detest me -- hate me with mystic hate? There are odd moments when I hate you starrily.’
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Gerald was rather taken aback, even a little disconcerted. He did not quite know what to say.
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`I may, of course, hate you sometimes,' he said. `But I'm not aware of it -- never acutely aware of it, that is.'
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`So much the worse,' said Birkin.
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Gerald watched him with curious eyes. He could not quite make him out.