"OKAY, WHERE'S YOUR CLUTCH?"I pointed to the lever on my left handlebar. Letting go of the grip was a mistake. The heavy bike wobbledunderneath me, threatening to knock me sidewise. I grabbed the handle again, trying to hold it straight.
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"Jacob, it won't stay up," I complained.
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"It will when you're moving," he promised. "Now where's your brake?""Behind my right foot.""Wrong."He grabbed my right hand and curled my fingers around the lever over the throttle.
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"But you said—""This is the brake you want. Don't use the back brake now, that's for later, when you know what you'redoing.""That doesn't sound right," I said suspiciously. "Aren't both brakes kind of important?""Forget the back brake, okay? Here—" He wrapped his hand around mine and made me squeeze thelever down. "That is how you brake. Don't forget." He squeezed my hand another time.
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"Fine," I agreed.
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"Throttle?"I twisted the right grip.
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"Gearshift?"I nudged it with my left calf.
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"Very good. I think you've got all the parts down. Now you just have to get itmoving.""Uh-huh," I muttered, afraid to say more. My stomach was contorting strangely and I thought my voicemight crack. I was terrified. I tried to tell myself that the fear was pointless. I'd already lived through theworst thing possible. In comparison with that, why should anything frighten me now? I should be able tolook death in the face and laugh.
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My stomach wasn't buying it.
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I stared down the long stretch of dirt road, bordered by thick misty green on every side. The road wassandy and damp. Better than mud.
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"I want you to hold down the clutch," Jacob instructed.
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I wrapped my fingers around the clutch.
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"Now this is crucial, Bella," Jacob stressed. "Don't let go of that, okay? I want you to pretend that I'vehanded you a live grenade. The pin is out and you are holding down the spoon."I squeezed tighter.
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"Good. Do you think you can kick-start it?""If I move my foot, I will fall over," I told him through gritted teeth, my fingers tight around my livegrenade.
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"Okay, I'll do it. Don't let go of the clutch."He took a step back, and then suddenly slammed his foot down on the pedal. There was a short rippingnoise, and the force of his thrust rocked the bike. I started to fall sideways, but Jake caught the bikebefore it knocked me to the ground.
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"Steady there," he encouraged. "Do you still have the clutch?""Yes," I gasped.
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"Plant your feet—I'm going to try again." But he put his hand on the back of the seat, too, just to be safe.
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It took four more kicks before the ignition caught. I could feel the bike rumbling beneath me like an angryanimal. I gripped the clutch until my fingers ached.
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"Try out the throttle," he suggested. "Very lightly. And don't let go of the clutch."Hesitantly, I twisted the right handle. Though the movement was tiny, the bike snarled beneath me. Itsounded angry and hungry now. Jacob smiled in deep satisfaction.
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"Do you remember how to put it into first gear?" he asked.
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"Yes.""Well, go ahead and do it.""Okay."He waited for a few seconds.
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"Left foot," he prompted.
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"I know," I said, taking a deep breath.
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"Are you sure you want to do this?" Jacob asked. "You look scared.""I'm fine," I snapped. I kicked the gearshift down one notch.
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"Very good," he praised me. "Now, very gently, ease up on the clutch."He took a step away from the bike.
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"You want me to let go of the grenade?" I asked in disbelief. No wonder he was moving back.
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"That's how you move, Bella. Just do it little by little."As I began to loosen my grip, I was shocked to be interrupted by a voice that did not belong to the boystanding next to me.
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"This is reckless and childish and idiotic, Bella," the velvet voice fumed.
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"Oh!" I gasped, and my hand fell off the clutch.
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The bike bucked under me, yanking me forward and then collapsing to the ground half on top of me. Thegrowling engine choked to a stop.
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"Bella?" Jacob jerked the heavy bike off me with ease. "Are you hurt?"But I wasn't listening.
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"I told you so," the perfect voice murmured, crystal clear.
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"Bella?" Jacob shook my shoulder.
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"I'm fine," I mumbled, dazed.
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More than fine. The voice in my head was back. It still rang in my ears—soft, velvety echoes.
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My mind ran swiftly through the possibilities. There was no familiarity here—on a road I'd never seen,doing something I'd never done before—no deja vu So the hallucinations must be triggered by somethingelse… I felt the adrenaline coursing through my veins again, and I thought I had the answer. Somecombination of adrenaline and danger, or maybe just stupidity.
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Jacob was pulling me to my feet.
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"Did you hit your head?" he asked.
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"I don't think so." I shook it back and forth, checking. "I didn't hurt the bike, did I?" This thought worriedme. I was anxious to try again, right away. Being reckless was paying off better than I'd thought. Forgetcheating. Maybe I'd found a way to generate the hallucinations—that was much more important.
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"No. You just stalled the engine," Jacob said, interrupting my quick speculations. "You let go of the clutchtoo fast."I nodded. "Let's try again.""Are you sure?" Jacob asked.
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"Positive."This time I tried to get the kick-start myself. It was complicated; I had to jump a little to slam down onthe pedal with enough force, and every time I did that, the bike tried to knock me over. Jacob's handhovered over the handlebars, ready to catch me if I needed him.
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It took several good tries, and even more poor tries, before the engine caught and roared to life underme. Remembering to hold on to the grenade, I revved the throttle experimentally. It snarled at theslightest touch. My smile mirrored Jacob's now.
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"Easy on the clutch," he reminded me.
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"Do you want to kill yourself, then? Is that what this is about?" the other voice spoke again, his tonesevere.
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I smiled tightly—it was still working—and ignored the questions. Jacob wasn't going to let anythingserious happen to me.
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"Go home to Charlie," the voice ordered. The sheer beauty of it amazed me. I couldn't allow my memoryto lose it, no matter the price.
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"Ease off slowly," Jacob encouraged me.
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"I will," I said. It bothered me a bit when I realized I was answering both of them.
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The voice in my head growled against the roar of the motorcycle.
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Trying to focus this time, to not let the voice startle me again, I relaxed my hand by tiny degrees.
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Suddenly, the gear caught and wrenched me forward.
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And I was flying.
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There was wind that wasn't there before, blowing my skin against my skull and flinging my hair backbehind me with enough force that it felt like someone was tugging on it. I'd left my stomach back at thestarting point; the adrenaline coursed through my body, tingling in my veins. The trees raced past me,blurring into a wall of green.
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But this was only first gear. My foot itched toward the gearshift as I twisted for more gas.
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"No, Bella!" the angry, honey-sweet voice ordered in my ear. "Watch what you're doing!"It distracted me enough from the speed to realize that the road was starting a slow curve to the left, and Iwas still going straight. Jacob hadn't told me how to turn.
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"Brakes, brakes," I muttered to myself, and I instinctively slammed down with my right foot, like I wouldin my truck.
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The bike was suddenly unstable underneath me, shivering first to one side and then the other. It wasdragging me toward the green wall, and I was going too fast. I tried to turn the handlebar the otherdirection, and the sudden shift of my weight pushed the bike toward the ground, still spinning toward thetrees.
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The motorcycle landed on top of me again, roaring loudly, pulling me across the wet sand until it hitsomething stationary. I couldn't see. My face was mashed into the moss. I tried to lift my head, but therewas something in the way.
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I was dizzy and confused. It sounded like there were three things snarling—the bike over me, the voice inmy head, and something else…"Bella!" Jacob yelled, and I heard the roar of the other bike cut off.
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The motorcycle no longer pinned me to the ground, and I rolled over to breathe. All the growling wentsilent.